..and die. I feel so depressed right now. I see my sister in law and her family. Her husband, her son, and her new baby girl, and I want exactly that. I'm jealous. I'll admit it. I WANT THAT!! It hurts my heart, and gives me that sinking feeling in my stomach. To top it off, yesterday the bid we put in on a house was outbid, and my sister in law found out that her offer was accepted. I am happy for them, because I know they need a house more than we do, but come on God!! Seriously??? The same day our offer was declined?? Show some freakin' sympathy.
I know I should be grateful to be alive, and be able to afford somewhere to live in blah blah blah. But liked the greedy person I must be, I want more. I don't want to live in this 1 bedroom 1 bath house anymore. I'm sick of it. It was cool for a while, because I didn't have to clean a big great house..but now I'd rather have that great big house to clean.
What do I have to show for myself?? I own a truck, rent a house, and I'm married. What an accomplishment! Yeah, right!
I just can't take this right now, like I said..I just want to curl up in a ball...and die.
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Friday, May 30, 2008
I just want to crawl into a ball...
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2 comments:
Hi there! Came upon your blog this morning on the nest and wanted to send you well wishes. I can (obviously) relate fully to feeling like you're the butt of some silly joke that God is playing. Sometimes it just doesn't seem fair. I like to have myself a little pity party every now and then, too!! :)
Chin up and good luck! Looking forward to reading more soon!! Feel free to stop by my blog, which is unquestionablelove.blogspot.com.
I know all about those jealousies ? baby jealousy and house jealousy. I live in a one-bedroom apartment and own a metropass. I desperately want a house and a car, but we decided the baby has to come first.
Why is it so hard for some and so easy for others? Hang in there. I hope your dreams come true soon.
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