Sitting here with my head in my hands

Just got back from the Dr. On the verge of crying. Now we have been through IF, and after 16 cycles of TTC we actually had a great stepping stone today. For months after months we tried different approaches while I was on a quest to find a fulfilling Dr. We tried herbal remedies, Vitex, Preseed, charting, OPKS, and only on one occasion did we get a postive OPK. Today the Dr prescribed me my first round of Clomid. I am so excited!! I have no idea how my body will react to the clomid, so I am trying to remain optimistic. Its only 50mg, but I want to see how my body reacts. I am on day one of Povera. I will be taking the Povera for 10 days, which should induce my AF. Could this really be the next step in our lives?

We are buying a house..will we be able to paint for the nursery too?? I'm looking at the white little magic pils in front of me..will one of them help me with the blessing of a child? So many emotions, mostly joy, a little nervousness. I want to cry tears of joy right now, please baby come. Mommy wants to care for you, and watch you grow. Daddy loves you too, and wants to teach you so many things. You are so wanted in this world, please come soon. I miss you already!